Hello lovebirds! Seriously, if you’re in love leave this page. You’re not gonna find it relatable. If you are single though, hey!! Let’s talk about how lonely we feel and how much we dread all these super cute loving couples that found their soulmates! yeah!!
A few days ago it was Valentine’s Day. So cute! -god I hate this day. As if it wasn’t already enough that we are reminded every single day how we failed to find our match, we have a specific day, every year that all the lovers are celebrating! Give me a break! I don’t like this day, for many reasons, but most importantly because every year I have no one to celebrate it with. I don’t mind that other people are happy, really I’m a great person. I just find it unfair for the rest of us, the single ones. Well I don’t know if the jealousy is talking right now, or the amazing old fashioned I’m drinking. I just believe that there’s a wound inside all the single people that is bleeding heavily on this day. We might still be heartbroken from our last relationship or just really miss a good hearty hug.
Classic me, on the 14th of February I logged into my instagram account and watched all of the stories. All of them were about flowers, heart-shaped chocolates and cute couple’s proposals or a story of how two people met. I don’t know why I binged watching these stories. It was like I was trying to justify to myself how unlucky I am to haven’t met the one. -Yeap that’s how my brain works, lucky me!
This day, 14th of February, I was about to receive a package from gymshark. I went downstairs to grab it, I saw the delivery guy, and he told me “hey I left it in there”. I realised that the name on the package wasn’t mine. My name is not Natasha. Well I couldn’t really see though the packaging, but it seemed to be a beautiful bouquet of flowers. Damn it, I’m so jealous. Flowers? What a beautiful gesture.
Well, you know what? I’m still young -I guess, I am beautiful, I am capable of many things -instead of finding a boyfriend and next year I might receive flowers. Who knows? The truth is I crave love. And I’m not ashamed of admitting it. And you shouldn’t be either. Feelings are to be felt. I can live a happy life with or without a man by my side. And you can do too. But it’s ok if you want it. Love is the ultimate feeling and it’s super human to crave it.
The reason I wrote this today was to tell you that we have all dreaded people on one point or another for having something that we don’t have. We’ve all felt lonely and incapable of love, and that’s okay. Thoughts are just thoughts. Thoughts are not a depiction of our reality. And on that note, I wanted to say: If have something to say to someone, say it. Call them, send them a message. If you want to say I’m sorry or I love you, just freaking say it. Life is small, you know that. Who cares about their answer or if you will eventually receive one. Just be truthful today. You might feel better inside. A little bit more peaceful. Stay brave, stay fabulous, and remember, you can do anything and become whoever you desire in this life. As Marie Forleo said, everything is figureoutable. Cheers to that!
A Better Me. 